conference or health - health or conference

Thank you very much for all that lovely postings. Strange that they all go in the same direction...

Well, obviously it’s much easier to say, stay in bed, don't worry, relax, calm down, everything is gonna be alright and so on than actually doing it after you have put so much into something…

Taking the decision was therefore much easier for the others. When I explained my situation yesterday to the other MC members it was clear to them that I won’t assist due to my health. THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING MY FRIENDS.
But to me it was still hard to do, cause I felt like I’m letting the people down, like I cannot fulfill the expectations that last upon my shoulders (maybe they are unreachable high), like I’m not there for the baby that I put into the world (metaphorical of course).

Anyways, I worked hard today to arrange everything, find the solutions, inform the people and deliver them with all the needed stuff. Probably too hard – but what can you do about it if the support of your teammates is just there to a small extend?!
Yes, I am the perfectionist, I do feel responsible and I am kind of worried about the conference. Not because I’m not there – because hardly anyone that was prepared is there.
Forgot to say that another faci cancelled today – also due to health reasons.
We don’t have a chair for the conference (didn’t find a re-emplacement in only one day of course) and the due to a weird traffic system the facis can only be there late for the pre-meeting.

But I don’t worry…
because as Nelson Henderson says: “The real meaning is to plant trees under which’s shade you are not expecting to sit.”

I’m probably relaxing tomorrow. After 12 hours it’s now enough isn’t it?!